Well. Shit. It’s been a long time. I started this blog as an outlet for dealing with my involuntary separation from the army. This was a part of my life and it ran its course. I left my military service behind and moved on with my life. I found comfort in the fact that the […]Read more "The Fall of Afghanistan"
I never understood gods will. I never bought into an all-powerful being having a plan for us as so many Christians would preach. I rejected the idea of an all-powerful puppet master making a marionette of people while claiming to have given us free will. I blamed the world for the atrocities in my life. […]Read more "Thoughts on God"
Everyone has been there. When you pop up on retention’s radar for re-enlistment and they come ask the age-old question “What are your plans for when you get out?” A simple question designed to make you really think if you are ready to re-enter the world of civilian life. For me, it was always “Use […]Read more "Civilianification"
Anyone who has ever served in the armed forces will tell you that not all time spent in the service of this great nation is productive. These are the stories of those times, told by those who lived them… PART I: Grunts 1 – Tankers 0 Until getting Drill sergeant orders to Fort Jackson, I had […]Read more "Waiting on the Word: The chronicles of the time wasting shenanigans only found in the deadliest fighting force in the world…"
I remember my mother sitting at the table of our old farmhouse with my recruiter signing the forms to make it possible for me to enlist at 17 years old, and get into the delayed entry program. I remember walking across the stage at my high school graduation with an impressive 45 absences and a […]Read more "The Many Masks of The Faceless"
Someone once told me that, when a man goes to war, he comes home six feet under or six feet over, and either way it’s in a box. It’s a powerful statement that I didn’t fully appreciate until I took a hard look at myself after coming home from my last tour. The box that I, and so […]Read more "Six Feet Under or Six Feet Over-Everyone Comes Home In A Box"
I have always used writing as an outlet during my life. The following is something I wrote on my first deployment in southern Baghdad. I was 20 years old. Feb 2, 2006 1:42 PM Patrol Its dusk. The smell of human stench fills the air but you have become used to it. All you can […]Read more "Patrol"
I was raised on the belief that “if you have to tell someone how good you are, you’re probably not that good.” Go ahead and read that a couple more times and let it soak in. If you are a veteran prone to what I like to call IVS, also known as irritable veteran syndrome, you might […]Read more "The Death of the Quiet Professional"
It is something that is ingrained into our DNA as human beings. It is the biggest driving factor for our actions and all other creatures for that matter. Fear. The emotion is generated in the oldest most primal part of our brain that makes us choose between fight or flight. Unlike animals though we have […]Read more "Fear"
Had the most thought-provoking appointment a while back. It was a TBI appointment that I had waited months to get. I was looking forward to it because even though I have had a fair amount of blast exposure I never thought that it really effected me. If it could explain some of the questions I […]Read more "Food for Thought on the Mind of a War Fighter"